Time changes everything, even you and I have changed
YIJIA♥
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should.
Know that grudges are a waste of happiness.
Let go of what you cannot change.
Love deeply, forgive quickly, take some chances.
Always give all you have got.
Try to take things in your stride and smile even when you’re feeling sad.
Remember what you’ve got but also love and cherish what you have now.
Do your best in everything cos life is too short to be anything but happy:D
--That's just me N my motto♥--
Memories are what warm you up from the inside. But they’re also what tear you apart
“sometimes,i hope Life is all but a long dream...”
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Change
Tuesday, August 23, 2011 || Tuesday, August 23, 2011
It had only been a few months.. but my life had taken a new change.
Cancer. Hospital...chemotherapy...these words, they once seemed so foreign to me.
But right now, they are part of my life.
No matter how hard I try, I can't avoid it.
All at once, they rammed and crushed down my once
perfect life.
Or at least, thinking back, my previous life was really perfect.
How nice it was to be healthy,going to school and taking tests.
This is cliche, but it is really true that only after you lost it then you will learn to cherish it.
There isn't a second when I don't think about my situation...how long has it been since I laughed heartily. And how hard it was to smile all day just to let others know 'I'm okay.'
The minute I am alone, I start thinking about it.
Chemo...i will be starting it in 8 days...
My heart skips a beat every time I fill in the date and gradually I start leaving the dates blank... Stupidly hoping that day would never come.
i know I am not the only one suffering and I am alrdy one of the lucky ones who had discovered those disgusting cells early. But i can't help but think, at least I am the only one who is suffering among my circle of friends.
Why me? I always wondered. But as i looked as my friends and sisters, I was sincerely pleased that such a thing did not happen to them. For I clearly knew what an ordeal it was, mentally and physically.
Honestly, I contemplated sucide, i mean, who doesn't when such a thing happens to u... but I knew i just could not do it. How could I bear to let my family and friends down... Although I was cursed with such an illness, I was blessed with lots and lots of ppl who love me. It is due to their care and concern that made me persevere all the way till now.
But can i be strong enough for the 7 torturous months ahead?
Am I able to take the stares of others? The annoying pitiful and inquisitive looks on their faces? Am i able to study and undergo treatment at the same time?
I really don't know what fate has in stores for me. but i am really tired about it and I pray to God that He will bless me with strength and courage to face all these.
