Time changes everything, even you and I have changed
YIJIA♥
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should.
Know that grudges are a waste of happiness.
Let go of what you cannot change.
Love deeply, forgive quickly, take some chances.
Always give all you have got.
Try to take things in your stride and smile even when you’re feeling sad.
Remember what you’ve got but also love and cherish what you have now.
Do your best in everything cos life is too short to be anything but happy:D
--That's just me N my motto♥--
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A new life (hair)
Saturday, September 17, 2011 || Saturday, September 17, 2011
Wow.
I am proud of myself for I have become stronger mentally.
Yep, I have taken the first step and have undergone the first cycle.
Undoubtedly, it was hard. I suffered nausea, headache, high fever, coughing and am still coughing now but the other effects of chemo had weared off. Thankfully (:
But now, my hair is dropping at record rate. Every now and then when I look down,there will be strands of hair here and there. One by one i pick them up, counting. But I have lost count. It is irritating and annoying me and so I have decided to shave bald. Yes, i am going to be a nun. Last nite, when my cousins came over, they said they wanted to shave bald with me and they thought that it was cool. Yaaaa rite. They are obviously not females. It was not that hard making that decision since I was just feeling pissed.
Nonchalantly, i told my mum that I wanted to shave bald earlier in the day. She paused her actions for a while, before looking at me and finally she said,"Okay."
That was when reality settled in, I was kinda hoping she will try to discourage me but she did not. However my elder sister did. She "Dont shave la,you will look weird.." Thanks,sister. Ironically,I ignored her.
At night, when bathing, i dropped A LOT of hair. My scalp is becoming increasingly visible by the minutes. As much as I love my hair, I wished to just shave it bald that very second. It was too dramatic for me to take it.
A few minutes ago, as i looked at my PJs with hair randomly stranded I started tearing. I was scared, I was beginning to feel the fear again. The thought of me sitting on a chair and my uncle shaving off my hair was really too much for me to take it...
but i know. This disease taught me how to face reality. I know if I do not want to continue seeing my hair drop everyday, I have to shave it. After all I have a 600 bucks wig, waiting for me to put it on.
So miss wig, here i come!
